An angel on his two knees, arms stretched towards the red sea; of violence and a sultry tongue.

-Thursday, November 30, 2006-

[Life is dandy]

hahahaa mosquito song. just came back from the phs choir concert. stupid garry teo con us there.

hmm today is a funny day. first i went to school and didnt attend a single lesson, then went to paradiz to play lan. cool man i finally played dota after so long and won 2 draft matches consec. shiok. ate subway, back to lan, went home and changed then headed to the singapore conference hall for the concert thingy. ok so pat ck yy garry and me reached there on time, joyce brought us to buy the tickets. haha saw a few familiar faces, wm, wk, zr , not to mention ms tang. lol too bad ms chionh didnt come, miss her horse face sia. the concert was kinda short and the st gabriel ppl were funny la! SHARPEN SHARPEN ahahahha. we were laughing like dunno what , so embarrassing. only the jiajun and joyce dance item was nice.

k im lazy to be detailed already but today is a funny day!

[Love, J] ;10:21 PM;

-Sunday, November 26, 2006-

[I don't wana set you free]

just got back from pingpong. ahahhaha awesomeness, joey scared a buffed up guy and i ate wz's disgusting fries. i must say jw house is damn nice for pingpong . and bon voyage mr jw for your church camp, have fun and i'll miss you !

please don't let my wrist/arm have whatever illness please!! :( been feeling pain in the veins of my wrist and forearm these 2 days, maybe i exert myself too much.

hmm today i read loads of blog, including my own archives cause the post in jw's blog made me read it. like so funny man, and reminded me of the fond memories of last year. i guess i should really be less uptight about stuff now, just let things be the way it should be. and it's time to create new memories for me to reminisce next time!

night everyone!

[Love, J] ;11:12 PM;

-Friday, November 24, 2006-

[It was'nt enough]

HEYYY IT'S A FRIDAYY NIGHTT I'M OUGHT TO HAVE FUN BUT SCREWED UP CD IS WASTING MY TIME, I HAVE TO DO A PERSONAL REFLECTION THINGY PLUS SLEEP EARLY CUZ IM PAYING INSTITUTE OF MENTAL HEALTH TOMORROW AGAIN, FOR ANOTHER 5 HOURS, THAT SUCKS TOTALLY.

I feel burdened again ): dumb heart. ohhh and muscle ache sucks totally. booooooooo.

argh booo again.

[Love, J] ;11:11 PM;

-Wednesday, November 22, 2006-

[Opposing forces]

hahahaha i'm super tired now my right arm feels like it's going to fall off anytime. dumb sports day X 2 consec, really damn exhausted. PING PONG ROCKS (:

i'm rather happy right now (*hahahah jw)

7 Random Things About Me:
1) i love my family and friends
2) i really hate school
3) i am a carnivore (cept for certain vege)
4) i seldom wear under garments at home muwahaha
5) i like girls
6) i like home
7) i don't eat eggs that are not stirred before they are fried.

7 Things That Scares Me:
1) cockroaches or lizards
2) needles
3) having any of my senses fail me
4) ghosts
5) losing any of my family or friends
6) my occasional callous behavior
7) the times when i'm suddenly not afraid of anything

7 Random Songs:
1) Blink 182 - I Miss You
2) Evanescence - My Immortal
3) Box Car Racer - There Is
4) Senses Fail - One Eight Seven
5) Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
6) Lostprophets - Rooftops
7) Nat King Cole - Love Was Made For Me And You

7 People to do this:
1) cowdog
2) wilson
3) pillow
4) my future daughter - megan
5) my future son - jerome
6) my imaginary friend - j the second
7) anyone who's reading this and has nothing to do ._.

[Love, J] ;11:48 PM;

-Tuesday, November 21, 2006-

[This time i cannot run]

hopefully i don't regret this decision, i'm going to stay and complete poly cause i don't want to be in NS while my friends are studying and when i'm out they go to NS , like no time to have fun together and stuff. friends > personal dreams/interests ! argh i shall blog more next time , really tired from the sports day today, and have to complete the dumb report.

night people!

[Love, J] ;11:40 PM;

-Monday, November 20, 2006-

[Changes]

hello , i'm here to blog cause today might be the memorable day, the day that made jm's life miserable and full of regrets, OR the day that made jm's life meaningful and well-lived.

quote from jw :
"you see ah, we are always afraid of what we cannot see"

the path less taken, i shall walk it and carve my own path. hello fear, my determination's going to overcome you, cause you are blocking the path to my dreams. thanks loads, family and friends whom gave me useful advice, i know i can always rely on you all!

life is a one way trip,

edit: plan is on hold ): my dad wants me to think it through until saturday to make the final decision. please please please let me overcome the fear of going NS.

[Love, J] ;10:39 PM;

-Sunday, November 19, 2006-

[Please show me how to fight this]

i miss SB people.
i miss TRC people.
i miss PHS people.
i miss 2D & 4F people.
i miss wearing the PHS uniform.
i miss listening to blink182.
i miss having all my best friends together in a school!
i miss having time to go swim with my family.

fu*k growing up.

i think i'm going to forsake my studies and concerntrate on things that i love to do, and to be with people i want to be with. LETS PLAY BBALL SOCCER AND JAM AGAIN!! live your life without regrets man.

[Love, J] ;8:41 PM;

-Saturday, November 18, 2006-

[Battlefield 2142]

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I CAN FINALLY PLAY THANKS TO MY LOVELY WONDERFUL AND BANANALOVER JUNWEI (;

ok today, went to school for gems, went to bugis with yy and jw. wth sia the pen seller con my $5 cuz she was so hawt and seduced me -.- plus her 5 friends surround me i cannot get out man. grrr, anyway went to sim lim sq and checked prices and stuff, but in the end didn't buy, will ask my dad to buy for me on sat.

after that went to my house, then realized that omg i forgot bring key, hahahaha we wanted to jump across from my neighbours house to mine but too bad my neighbour wasn't home. so waited for my bro to come home, wasted some time then grabbed our equiptment , called weizhe to join us then off we CHIONGED to mr jw bananalover's house. AYE MR CHIEF PETTY SILVER OFFICER. we pingponged like there was no tomorrow. i must say whoa yy stunned me =p but BULLSH!T how come our phs doublebase ownage lost to the dachiao primary . hahaha nvm anyway the nice jw lent me his graphic card and now i can play bf2142, GREATNESS. ok i'll end here my patch download is done!! MAUAHAHAH I CANT WAIT

[Love, J] ;12:54 AM;

-Friday, November 17, 2006-

[Bring me back]

sometimes there are things that are out of your control that will try to pull you down. you can either stand firm on your principles or you can succumb to it and choose the easy way out.

i think i'm really lucky to have people whom i can share my troubles with. really appreciate it.

wooohoo yesterday was fun!

sometimes i wonder why the last element is always missing

[Love, J] ;1:03 AM;

-Sunday, November 12, 2006-

[Cast Away]

oh man i feel so sad for chuck. tom hanks is indeed a great actor, managed to portray all his emotions without having to say anything at all. Cast Away is such an awesome movie man, gave me a slap and woke me up.

argh i feel so fortunate now .

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO WILSON!!! i'm getting myself a wilson, i think.

[Love, J] ;1:04 AM;

-Thursday, November 09, 2006-

[Ridicule]

just caught fiona xie and adam chen on tv, super hot and entertaining.

anway, blog-surfed today cuz i had nothing better to do, read many ppl's blog whom i do not really know but probably recognize their faces. seriously why does everyone keep whining about trival stuffs then apologize for being "emo". i mean not like the moon had just collided with earth and they got crushed in the process. instead of overcoming it, they doing stupid things like calling themselves emo and then hope someone will pity them or think they're cool. i think it's really pathetic, ridiculous, pointless and seemingly "emo" is being overused by everyone & sometimes i wonder why our society is getting more and more screwed.

so screwed that it's hard to find like-minded people who are not polluted by the media and actually stand by their principles. so to the few people i've found, i'm really proud of you guys =) oh and i'm going to learn from jw, not to use profanity, people who express themselves w/o being crude are actually so much more beautiful.

i've got lots of places i wana travel to, holidays please come faster!

STUDY HARD EVERYONE. & the new fishNchips from kfc is pretty tasty.

why'd you laugh when i know that you hurt inside?

[Love, J] ;7:29 PM;

-Friday, November 03, 2006-

[It's not your fault]

sup people =) it's the post-exam holidays! (2weeks inclusive of exams)

school as usual today, after school went to yishun, waited for jerome & joey then went to joey's house. they practiced guitar there i wanted to learn as well but my bloody bandaged finger took up 2 strings whenever i tried to play =( later on marcus came and joined them practicing. damn, like see no touch. joey i also wana learn guitar when my finger recovers ok ? hehe . slacked ard then tim joined us and we went for dinner. homed after that, nice meeting you all romi & mao.

yes i'm bipolar.

[Love, J] ;10:48 PM;

-Thursday, November 02, 2006-

[Anesthesia effect]

grrr today saw the worst experience with needles, went to alexander hosp to take out the freaking lead. damn man, when the doctor injected the anesthesia my whole finger felt like an inflated ballon, felt the liquid gush in and my skin was like gng to tear anytime. was on the verge of vommiting man.. due to the pain & my thing with needles. then was v giddy & all i saw was green particles which turned into a big patch of darkness, like i was gng to blackout. luckily the doc made me lie down & blood rushed back to my head & i sorta regained consciousness. then he cut open my skin & took out the lead. halfway thru he even show me the lead & was like "see this is the lead" -.- really glad tt my dad accompanied me there. thanks dad! went home after tt & had a good long rest. hate this numb feeling.

woohoo so relieved tt it's all over. pardon me for all the short forms cuz i typed this whole entry using 1 hand =x &yay tmr = "last day of sch"

[Love, J] ;6:24 PM;